“Long before any person spoke to us in this world, we were spoken to by the voice of eternal love. Our preciousness, uniqueness, and individuality are not given to us by those who meet us in clock time— our brief chronological existence— but by the one who has chosen us with an everlasting love, a love that existed from all eternity and will last through all eternity.”
-Henri Nowen, Life of the Beloved
I just love this book and the beautiful truth that is described in this quote.
As Christians, we are the beloved of God.
However, I’ve found from personal experience that it is much easier to know this truth than to actually live like I believe it.
I think that one of the greatest roots of my social anxiety is a fear of rejection. In my opinion, rejection is one of the most painful experiences that we can have as humans. We were created by God for love and connection and that is why rejection is so incredibly painful.
In my research about anxiety, I’ve learned that most people who struggle with social anxiety can pinpoint specific memories (usually in their teenage years) where they felt rejected, excluded, or unwanted.
As I’ve sought healing in my life, God has taken me back to specific memories of rejection and exclusion. I’ve tried to identify the lies I started to believe about myself through those experiences. Sadly, I’ve realized that I’ve allowed fallen human beings to speak my identity over me, rather than my perfect heavenly Father.
Over the past year or so, God has been taking me on a journey of reclaiming my own belovedness. I’ve set aside a lot of time this year to intentionally focus on scriptures about His unconditional love for me. In the process, God has started to reveal to me my true identity as child, friend, and beloved of God.
Along the way, something surprising has happened. My capacity to love others has increased. There is a strong correlation between the way I view myself and the way that I judge others. It’s hard to truly love others when I’m viewing myself harshly or with self-criticism. As I’ve come to believe that God truly loves me just as I am, regardless of how I perform or measure up, I’ve realized that the same is true about other people too. And this profoundly impacts the way I see and treat the people around me.
Reclaiming my own belovedness frees me to call out the belovedness in others.
What a beautiful gift!
2 thoughts on “Beloved”
I might enjoy reading this blog. Same issues.
I too have found that God’s prescription is to go back and surrender defining moments back to God, for his interpretation and healing. I’ve also found that when the weight of seeking love is lifted, I’m freer to send it to others. Great insights, keep it up.
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I’m glad you can resonate. Thanks for sharing your experience as well!
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